Big Fight with Dad

So I had a huge fight with my dad yesterday in part regarding our adoption. He always asks about any news, which I appreciate, but I've dropped little hints about how if I know anything, I'll be sure to share it. Well yesterday morning when he asked I said, "no news, when there is I'll let you know" to which he replied, "Christ, this is taking a long time!" Boy, did that sting. I explained to him that it is not taking a long time that it could be anywhere from two days to a year before we get matched and that isn't a "long time". He said something like "don't get snappy with me" to which I said "just don't ask about it". I wasn't nice about the way I said that, so it turned into a huge fight.

I know he doesn't get it and I should be more patient with him but it just stabs me to the bone when people ask all the time. I don't know why we haven't been picked? I guess we are not all appealing to any birthmoms. I keep going over my mantra, "the right baby, the baby meant for us, will find us". But I wonder sometimes if I'm just kidding myself.

I still haven't heard back from Peggy at the adoption agency regarding my email and the questions I had in it. I asked how many times our profile has been shown and I asked if we should change our scrapbooks. Hopefully she'll contact me today sometime or I'm going to have to call and I don't want to be a bitch and call. I just want to be presented to birthmoms that are looking for a couple like us. I mean what's not to like?